Hi friends, how have you been?
I have a question.
When someone doesn’t love you the way you want to be loved, is it still love to you?
There are so many love languages, and not everyone is fortunate enough to find someone who speaks the same love language as they do. When we are with someone who doesn’t speak the same love language, we sometimes forget that just because they do not love us the way we want them to, it doesn’t mean they don’t. And sometimes, even if we are aware that they do love us, because of how they express their love, we are left still feeling unloved, for the simple reason that we feel love the way we understand love to be.
When we are feeling down, it is especially hard to be reminded that just because someone doesn’t love us the way we want them to, it doesn’t mean they don’t. When we are in such a vulnerable state, we need to feel loved. At this state, we lose all sense of logic. We are incapable of knowing that we are loved. We are reduced to a ball of messed up emotions that no knowledge can help us. Only emotions can. To combat all these bad feelings that we have, we need good vibes. We need to feel them when we lack the mental state to know them.
This can happen to any one of us. No matter how strong we are, there will be times when we are not. Similarly, this can also happen to those who are dear to us. It is therefore important that we recognise this, and try to do the best we can to help ourselves and to help others.
I am not in the best state of mind now. I am extremely stressed out and tired with work. On top of that, I am feeling frustrated that since 2 Jan 2019, I have been unable to do all that I planned to do for all my 2019 goals. Thanks to work, I have been unable to workout, write or read as often as I would like to. I have been spending so much time and energy at work that what little time I have left, I am left with no energy or willpower. Instead, I have been making so many bad decisions, spending what little free time I have watching Netflix and snacking unhealthily. I hate that I am doing all these, yet it seems so difficult to snap out of it. By the end of every work day, I am so tired I cannot even fall asleep. So I just plop myself in front of the TV until it’s way past my bedtime, as a result of which I remain tired the next morning, which leads to me skipping the gym. To keep myself awake, I have been drinking too much coffee.
I don’t even know what is the purpose of me writing this. It’s definitely not in line with the theme of this blog. I guess I just needed a place to rant.
I hope your days have been much better than mine. I don’t see the light at the end of the tunnel yet, but I’m sure there is an end to this long tunnel. Till then, I will survive.